[I was sad]

I was sad
Having signed up in a rebel band,
Having signed up to rid the land
Of a plague it had.

For I knew
That I would suffer, I would be lost,
Be bitter and foolish and tempest tost
And a failure too.

I was sad;
Though far in the future our light would shine
For the present the dark was ours, was mine,
I couldn’t be glad.

16.7.17